My horrible, terrible, no good,awful day. Oh, my.

What a terrible title, huh?

I’m sure if I checked it out at my favorite headline analyzer it would show I should use more positive words. But there are none I can think of right now.

Maybe later.

So what’s so awful about this day?

Well, first of all my Planters Faschiitis has returned. I am so-o-o-o discouraged about this. I will spare you the details but I’ve had five foot surgeries and I’m so done with foot issues.

Then there’s the IBS that has literally consumed be today. I doubt I have any electrolytes in my system anymore. I’ve not eaten anything today and am at water only. Needless to say, I’m exhausted. I’m so done with this, too.

I would be doing just fine even with all the above except for the fact that I had this day planned. I was going to work on my devotional all day. But between trips to the “john” (Up to fifteen so far. When I say a bad IBS day, I’m not kidding.) on my sore feet, I’ve had computer troubles all morning.

It’s 12:45 and my day is half gone.

What is most interesting about all this is I started this book last January. Last February the IBS started flaring up after many years with no problems. Is there a connection?

Well, scripture definitely supports the idea that satan (I refuse to capitalize the name) never wants us to succeed in anything that would bring God glory. I know this book is prompted by God and will bring Him glory. So could satan behind it?

Certainly.

I don’t consider myself that big of a threat though, so there’s that.

BUT, here’s the silver lining. Well, not a silver lining exactly but what I’m learning through all this.

When I go up this morning, I already had some rumbling in my tummies. Before I left the bed, I sought God’s comfort. I also told Him something.

I told HIm this was His day and whatever the day held, I was going to trust Him. I’ve been doing that. And it’s been an active process meaning I’ve had to go back there and reiterate that many times.

I never did get the computer problems solved. The stomach is still grumbling and my feet still hurt. But this is my reality right now.

Sometimes we can fight against our reality, other times, we can’t. But we should always be aware of it.

Our feelings and circumstances are what they are. While I hate the phrase, “It is what is is” because I believe it’s self-defeating, there are times when we need to at least “get real” with ourselves about what is going on. Once we do that, we can look for alternatives.

That’s what I’m doing right now. I’m taking some time away from the computer and going to plan “B”, which is have some “down” time and not working so hard.

In fact, this is exactly how a person should address depression. Accept how you’re feeling. It won’t make your depression worse. Pretending you aren’t depressed doesn’t help.

But wallowing in it doesn’t work either. Give yourself a little space. A little time. Then step right back in your life.

Depression is often about the timing. Knowing when to “hold ’em” and when to “fold ’em.”

Only you can figure that out for yourself.

God bless and have a good day.

SB

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