Because God holds the pen and writes our story, He ultimately decides when to put a period at the end our sentence.

I don’t know about you but I find that a bit scary. Not for me, but the fact that God is writing the end of the story for my loved ones as well.

Am I the only one?

Am I the only one who fears fear?

For sure, losing someone I love, is my biggest fear. My parents have both died and that was unbelievably painful. But losing one of my children, my husband……..I can’t even go there.

And yet the older I get, the more it’s a possibility. And the truth is the older I get, the more I tell God about it. I tell Him how afraid I am sometimes and that I wish I could trust Him more for that. I confess my lack of faith in complete awareness that God does not judge me for it. Instead, He meets us there.

I mean, shouldn’t I be able to face the fear of the future?

But I “hear” that quiet voice of the Holy Spirit reminding me that I don’t have to feel bad about the fear. That when the time comes, He’ll be there holding me up. I still don’t want to experience loss, but I know I will. There would be something wrong with me if I could think about such losses and not feel sad and scared.

The Bible doesn’t suggest that there aren’t things in this world for which we should not be afraid. It also doesn’t suggest we can easily rise above our fears. Versions of “Do not be afraid” appear over seventy times in the Bible, more than any other phrase. That tells us God is well aware of our human nature. He is also well aware there are things in this world we should fear.

I think there might be something to be said for the fact that because it is the most used phrase in the Bible, it clearly means God knew that fear would be our biggest nemesis and He has given us an answer for that.

So if you fear your depression is returning, remember that God knows all about your fear and doesn’t judge you for it. Instead He is waiting for you to come to Him and ask for help.

God bless and have a wonderful day.